Too little to say; too much to express

I'm so stress up now, I need to eat & eat & eat .

Time passes really fast. (I seems to be saying that every time) For the past few weeks, I'm busy with my schoolwork & settling things down. Together with Bris, we visited two museums in Singapore, Peranakan Museum & National Museum of Singapore, and we felt that the two trips are fruitless. We aren't those that would appreciate the Peranakan culture neither would we felt excited for the programmes planned for the children. Photos will be uploaded after some time. Besides those monotonous individual assignment, I also have to mess around with group projects. Well, I understand doing projects are inevitable in polytechnics but I seriously hate projects!! ): Mid-Sem Tests are also arriving in one week's time. What's more is that I'll be travelling to Malacca during the weekends (for some stress-relieved trip) with family & mummy's side family. I hope I planned my schedule well and manage to finish studying before I set off. (And, what the hell am I doing now?)

I'm recently interested in cosmetics & facial-related field. Have been watching youtube videos/vlogs etc. At least there are something for me to do at home. Unlike my mum who burst into tears every minute whenever she saw my dad's photo. (Crying is contagious for me)

I wonder how long will it take for us to feel better; will there be a day when our family feel happiness? I doubt so. There's a scar in our heart no matter what.

Some recent photos of me:

Beyond description

I've decided to revive my blog because I find that keeping a blog can help to keep memories forever. (Unless blogger decides to close down)

Countless things have happened to me and the most tremendous & drastic happening is losing my beloved father. It has been 47 days since daddy was not around with us. I couldn't stop thinking of him, and reprimanding myself for not being able to cherish & value more time with him. I regretted. I hope daddy will forgive me for throwing temper at him; being so insensible and insensitive about our financial situation; spending and wasting so much money on redundant things. Although every time when I am alone I'll cry, I will tell myself to be strong. Although things turn out the way that we don't want it to be, I'll move on. There're many things in life that we could not control but there's one thing that I'm sure I can - Love my family x100 times than before.

Daddy, I'll be a good girl to mummy and study hard to get into a local university. I know what you wish for is not to grieve over you but to stay strong. I'll do that. I love you.

Now is my project period (again!). But luckily, I've better group mates this time round :) Hope we can achieve a better results than before. To be continued!

Dream = Goal

We should all work towards our dream and fulfil them!

I'm in a difficult situation. Will I success ?

Should I give it a try?


















I ♥ E (:
Super hot!

Hwaiting.

I'm hoping that this semester that fly pass asap. I don't like school noww. ):

Flower Rock coming out on 19th May! :D

I think I'll take a break from blogging. (:

It is all left on our own

We have been struggling for MONTHS. With much optimism, I believe my dad will recover. Nevertheless, my mum told my sis one bad news yesterday. The doctor told my dad that he is going to give up treating him. (In other words, my dad has got no hope) And for god's sake which fucking doctor will say such DEMORALISING phrases to his patient!?! Can he even think how my dad feeels? My mum dares not share this to us as she's afraid we'll breakdown. I think we wouldn't, in fact we must have stronger will and determination. All my dad can do now is to rely on his own and chinese medicine.

Can I pray that all those cancer cells vanish and stop pestering him? PLEASE..

Reality

I realised I'm left with one more week before school starts. I didn't know that my 2months (lessthanthatactually) holiday has passed so breezely! Yesterday, I was actually thinking what to do for the rest of my days. Once school starts, I have to return back to my study mood and have to stop watching all those nice dramas. Facing another new semester, well that's reality. All of us have to go through mundane life process. However in comparison with working life, I would rather stay as a student and enjoy this part of my journey right?

F.T Island so cutee(:

Aren't they?

I Hope

I need to earn more money to prepare for my overseas trip at the end of the year. By whatever means, I want to travel! Either taiwan or korea ((:
I'm into kpop recently, all thanks to cheryl fung.
Attended her good friday session, it was quite an experience for me. I met milky, but didn't dare to touch her because she's having her periodic thing. (I'm not sure if it's periodic though) Cheryl played guitar.. awesome !

Anyone has any nice kr drama to reccommend? I'm getting bored.

Innocence

Tuesday.. how shall I describe it. Went to Mt E in the morning and accompanied my dad the whole day. Although he didn't express it, I can tell that he's suffering; in pain. I shall keep mum since I don't want him to feel sad. The signal in that hosp. is bad, we can't watch the Channel U show at 7pm! Poor facility and service, shall complain someday!

Alice in Wonderland! Seems pretty boring to me when I saw the advertisement a few days back but since I have nothing to do at home, I went to watch it today (: Surprisingly it was better than I've expected. The graphics are splendid and Johnny Dep is as usual, funny and eccentric. Cheryl told me something amusing. Her mum says that he (J.Dep) looks better with heavy makeup on! That is true though. Oops, no offence.

What should I do to people who hurt me..

First of all, I'm glad that I have gone through all these. I manage to score relatively well for my exams. Although, my GPA still drop, I'm satisfied with it. I have received unexpectedly strange results! Those that are I'm suppose to score well did badly and those I'm suppose to do badly scored well! Why the hell are these happening?! Despite concentrating and working so much for my psychology project, I only got a B. Disappointing..

And I finally understand that in polytechnic, you'll have to focus in lectures, complete your tutorials and definitely study hard for exams, ultimately you'll get your desired results. Study hard and play hard is the mission statement for poly isn't it! (:

2012

I dreamt of 2012 last night. Not that I can see the future of 2012, but the movie 2012. All the scenes came up and I became the lead. The feeling was atrocious, I can feel the earth shaking and my heartbeat racing like it can't slow down. Just saw Jiajie's status on this topic too. Syl told me that she has a bad feeling about the world, and that if we ended our lives at 2012, it'll be a waste not to enjoy them.

No, I don't want it to happen.

With the current weather and natural disasters, we cannot deduce that we will be safe. Although I heard from my friend that geographer assures that such happenings (in the movie2012) will not occur in 2012, but they cannot account that it will not happen in 2013, 2020. I'm afraid that it will occur eventually, yet it is useless to be scared or be appalled. We have to know what are the causes of these natural disasters so as to prevent and keep them under control.

The earthquake in Chile that occur on 27Feb with massive magnitude of 8.8 caused much unfortune and destructions to the people. From the ScienceDaily news, the earthquake occurred where the Nazca tectonic plate was subducted under the South American plate, building pressure in the covergence zones. The movements of these plates are due to the crustal motion and deformation. How do we exactly stop the crust moving?

Putting that aside, the quake had triggered tsunami in Pacific Region. There will be more casualties by then. I wonder, the resources on Earth will soon be used up not because of the rapid development but due to these natural disasters. Resources destroyed during the destruction, resources used to aid the casualties, resources to build up the countries. (Haiti, Chile) Moreover, in some part of China, I saw the news that the ground can be use to boil water? Imagine the lava under the crust, must be boiling like nobody's business.

More importantly, the casualties are emotionally unstable after experiencing the disaster. Their homes are ruined; family&friends are separated/left; desperate for physiological needs. Even if they survived, they will not lived like before. Who would bear to see such tragedy?

Whatever it is, I hope and pray hard that the world will not end so soon and that we can live happily ever after! (:

Where has my world gone to?

The latest report was out and I almost cry out of joy. Everything is under control which makes me feel more at ease. Denying the fact that he's still gloomy, I want my life back. Not facing any tense atmosphere; not crying when I recalled all these; not believing anymore non-scientific myths which I can't help looking back.

Recently, I have started reading novels again. The latest I had just finished reading was Remember Me by Sophie Kinsella. Last Monday, I was recommending this novel to Jiajie and she updated me that a movie called Remember Me is coming out and is starring Robert Pattinson! I guess the stories are different because I caught a glance at the trailer and it looks foreign to me. Well, who cares! I'm going to watch this movie since my last movie was ... The spy next door. (:

In any case, I will do my best to work more and spend less. Our exam results will be released this Friday which I sincerely hope that my results will not drop too much although I studied really hard. Let us believe in ...

fate.

Move forward.

I tried my best to cheer him and make him happy, but to no avail.

I want him to look forward and think of future but I didnt know how to put them in words.

When I see those tears rolling down, all I did is realising that my eyes are teary.

I was wondering why life is so unfair. I'm loss.

Once isn't enough, it came twice. fml

Desirable

This is great,

two weeks of nightmares..

endless crying..



and now, we have to be stronger.

and finally, exams are over.

Fedup

Projects! (:


Spamming Joan's Baby one day. I really love dslr cus it's so funn! Too bad I don'tknow how to use if not I'll spam my dad's dslr. Hehe (:

Finally will end all projects next week (excluding presentations). After which, have to prepare for my final exams. I don't think I'll have the mood to celebrate CNY! Mahjooooong ):

Have been online shopping like mad. Spent too much this few days :x

Bye(:

(Cheryl! Your potato will recover. Strawberry Shortcake will be with you!) :D

BUSY WITH PROJECTS

BUSY WITH PROJECTS

Leave me alone

Hellloooooo(:

Sorry for not updating so long. This blog must be missing me :P I'm super busy with my projects (5 in total), blogshop (just opened), and tabletennis training. Because of IVP, our training resumed back to thrice a week which is like killing me. Always ended up going home late, tired, worn out. I didn't do my tutorials too which I'm feeling super uhh-unable-to-describe guilty.

Oh anyway, I've gotten back most of my results except Marketing (die) & Psychology (confirm DIE). I'm very disappointed w my Business Accounting lah. No A. ): Ob and Macroecons were alrighty (:

I WANT TO DE-STRESS.

Feeling so stress-up nowadays. And shall listen to more high songs! :D

Byee.

Happy New Year!

One more hour to .... 2010 !



Memories of 2009 ♥

Time flieeeeeeeeeees.

I really hope that 2010 will be a much BETTER year! (2009 is great!)

Resolutions of 2010:

- A better person

- Study very hard

- Aim for whatever goals that I've set

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

2010 ♥

Outings! <33

Marina Barrage & X'mas Outings.

Smile(:

Picnic with 4r2.





What a nice weather to picnic that day! No sunny; no rainy :D We spent our time taking arty photos and some guys spent their time figuring how to fly kite. The aero-kite was successfully flying due to our great pilot, jansen, and his co-pilot, ME! (nah jking, I can't fly kite)

The food was nice and I was super shocked that they bought me a belated birthday cakee! ((:



THANKS LOADS PPL!! ♥♥



Let's have another gathering real soon. :3

Alvin&kawaiii

Our kite!

X'MAS ♥

Unable to describe the fun&laughter we had that day. Esp when we're all resting at starbucks + the exchanging of gifts (: (But i think is better to set a theme for our gifts right?) :P

Anyway, orchard is really flooded with people and people spamming their cameras. But I can feel the xmas festive atmosphere! :)

Belated Merry Christmas! ♥

I had enough fun this hols. I should get back to my study mood. Haha projects projects projects! School reopening next week! ):

Yayness.

Yayness to the max.

Super busy during my last week of holiday.

Monday- Project + training.

Tues - Brownie making + Marina Barrage w TT Hot girls.

Wed - Lunch w aunt + Marina Barrage w 4r2 (I know I'm mad)

Thurs - Cash Studio! <3

Fri - X'mas celebration!! :D

Sat & Sun - Work.


Booness. Oh, I'm glad I've no school on Monday! Woooo! Jealous? :P

Project = Cannot make it. I'm struggling. Urghhh.
Study study study mood please?

I ♥ them

♥♥

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

Happy Birthday ♥

Hey, I'm finally 17 years old. :) Great day today. Firstly I wanna thank my sis & bro for getting me an awesome purple cap! :D Next would be those that wishes me. Even friends that I rarely talked to or very long never contact wishes me. Thanks loads! :D

Cash Studio today. And what a surprise! Josjos is at cash studio too! Wooo. ((:

Love Yingqi,Sylvia&Youming lah. Awesome friends I've got. Haha, sadly Yanci can't go. It's alright, we still got x'mas celebration! :)

Cute nephew & niece (: