When you come to the end of your rope, tie a knot and hang on

Appearing to be strong on the surface, telling everyone "I'M ALRIGHT :D". Faking to smile all day. Behaving like I don't mind everyone's action. It was tough. Really, I feel like I'm suffocating and I have enough. From now on, I have decided to close the door in my heart. Please ... don't put me on the spot, by helping me to stay away from me. I would want to be alone. Teardrops will never dry up and I don't wish to spread them to you.

I will always remember how he left us, the scene that will retain in my memory for years. He did not bid us farewell, just saying "they're here". He smiled and grabbed our hands & lost his conscious minutes later. The months & days that we have been rushing through & fro from home to hosp. The kind of strength & determination that I can't believe I actually had because all I think of was wanting to accompany him till he recovers, which is otherwise. The times when he was in hosp & keep asking us if we were afraid, and giving us the look that he was at his wits end. When we were doing nothing but crying for help as his heart beat was hike up to 180bpm (a normal human heart rate is around 70bpm) As well as the last image of him when he was lying at the coffin. All these were bad yet only memories left with him.

FUCK.

The second week of work is starting to get a little bored because I've learnt most of the things in the first week. Most of the time I would be reading newspaper or answering phone calls. Around 10 more weeks to go!

If only I lived an ordinary life like them ...

I love liquor chocolates!

Snacks available @workplace (How to go on diet?)

Hot chocolate ~

BK Double Shot breakfast (Y)

Snapshot at work (:

Sometimes memories are better forgotten. Sometimes they’re not, but over time you seem to lose them. But sometimes, even though some memories are too hard to even bear, you want to hold on to the BAD and the GOOD memories. cause in the end, you realize there was a reason for all that misery, that it resulted in happiness.

No longer the same

Happy Birthday to my beloved Daddy!

My Daddy's last birthday cake

It happened so fast that we didn't cherish the last moments together...

I shall give a brief update on my internship.

Working at City Development Ltd is great! I was posted to the Sales/Marketing Dept and to be more precise, I'm working under the sales division. In the beginning, I was rather upset about my job scope because it requires me to travel from place to place, to different show flats. I thought I would be stationed at the HQ office doing some admin job. However, after three days of working, I totally love my job! I was able to see a greater picture of the whole company and pushing sales was unexpectedly fun! I was also able to visit to high-end condominiums (my daddy ♥ condos, so I'm aiming to buy condo in the future!) such as One Shenton & Cliveden. My supervisors and colleagues are also very nice and friendly to me. I believe my dad has been blessing and watching over me. I hope to continue such positive experience and attitude in work. Fighting! :)

Exam results are out today! I received the TP message at 11.11am SHARP (good sign?)

I was so happy with my results!

TO DADDY,

I DID IT & I HOPE I'VE MADE YOU PROUD.

I'LL CONTINUE TO WORK HARDER FOR MY LAST SEMESTER & AIM TO FURTHER MY STUDIES AT LOCAL UNIVERSITY. ALTHOUGH I COULDN'T PRESENT TO YOU MY GRADES PERSONALLY, I KNOW YOU'RE UP THERE LOOKING AT ME & SMILING WIDELY. I'VE ALSO BEEN A GOOD GIRL BY SPENDING VERY LITTLE; DOING HOUSE CHORES; CONTROLLING MY TEMPER; PUTTING EXTRA CARE FOR FAMILY; GOING OUT LESS OFTEN. I THINK YOU CAN SEE IT YOURSELF THOUGH. I'LL DO MUCH BETTER AND MAKE YOU EVEN MORE PROUD OF ME. JUST WANT TO WISH YOU HAPPY BIRTHDAY AGAIN... AND I MISS YOU A LOT.

WITH LOVE, YUNJEN(小女儿).

Some pictures of Cliveden @ Grange:

It looks so magnificent!

Cylinder/Circular -shaped Condo, specifically designed showroom unit

I just love the bedroom!

Camwhoring while waiting for clients! ^^

Every moment is an experience

Yes, I'm posted to City Developments Ltd ! In the beginning when I knew about this company, I was fretting over what kind of company is this because it seems to be some construction company. It is located in town- Raffles Place, which means that I need not travel for long hours to work everyday! The pay is rather low maybe due to the current economy but the worst thing is that I'll be having my internship ALONE. There isn't any other tp interns going to work with me .... :( So I guess I'll be some lonely shit there, working and eating alone? Regardless, I'll try to stay positive & make friends there. (hope daddy blessed me with good & nice colleagues!)

I Google-d and search for some info about this company. It is actually a real estate development organisation, as well as hotel ownership and management and facilities management. It has a long history, starting since 1963. So below is the organisation chart of CDL:

This is their headquarter building. I'll most likely be working here.

Honestly, I wasn't looking forward to SIP or rather, feeling nervous>excited. 3 months of SIP isn't long but still around a quarter of year. Let's hope everyone enjoys their attachment and do their best!

There's another Volkswagen showroom again yesterday. But it was so much different from the first one that I've worked at. In terms of ... the crowd. Yesterday was (how should I put it) tiring not because of overworked but tired of waiting for the time to pass! The showroom was considered a failure (to me) because there's a lack of advertising and promoting on launching the new car. They insist that it was because of the poor economy and the car is too expensive. But anyway despite the pathetic number of visitors, we still carry out our task well! Besides the fact that we kept eating the snacks that are intended for the customers hehe ^^

Camwhore w Pris again (I'm wearing her fake specs!)

Group photo after work.

Days after days ...

everyone owns a smartphone (iphone/bb/samsung) now.

I couldn't afford it because now we need to use our remaining wisely.

My dearest sister is even thinking of dropping out of uni because of money.

When my friend's dad sent me home, I always remember the days my dad always came to fetch me home when I was working till late midnight or sending me to school.

I feel terrible because it seems to be everyone having a loving father except me.

If my dad was still around, I'm sure I'll be the same as others.

Why am I so different from others?

When life gives you a hundred reasons to cry, show life that you have a thousand reasons to smile

meet my YURI!♥

I shall update about what has happened for my past few days..

Exams officially ended on 2nd Sept, Friday. The last paper (event management) was a killer to me. I wasn't really prepared for such tough paper. Well, only myself to be blamed. But the Managerial Accounting paper was a breeze! Everyone could do it without cracking their brains.. so I guess there'll be moderation? Shall not set too high hopes for myself.

After our last paper, we finally decided to go for our long awaited YUM CHA BUFFET. We have been talking about it for so long (around proj period?) and food has been our top priority topic! And yes, we waited and waited and waited till 3pm before we start our scrumptious feast. The dim sum there were absolutely delectable. We never fail to enjoy our every bite with some exceptions. I guess my favourites were xiaolongbao, pan-fried dumplings, egg tarts, chives dumplings and carrot cake. You should try them if you're there and you're a chives-lover! And of course we ordered more than what we could eat cus it's a buffet!! Thus, we started playing the guessing the password? (zhongjimima) I lost twice and have to gorge down additional egg tart & mango prawn fritters :(

Photos Credit: Priscilla @auntyfong

While waiting for the buffet to start.

We ordered a lot more than these..

Footing the bill!

There were actually more appealing food photos but they were locked inside shir lyn's camera. Yes, she didn't upload the photos! Oh well, post them next time then. After the buffet, we went to play pool with bloated tummy. It has been a few years since I last played. And I was a terrible player booohoooo.

Bris, the professional player in action!

Camwhoring with Pris cus we're too lousy :O

So basically I've started my one week plus break before the start of my SIP. I still yet to receive any phone calls for interview. WHY. I really hope I got into some good company with higher pay & friendly colleagues & good boss & near to my house & ... PLEASE!

Anyway recently I've been going out so often and spent too much. So I guess I'll save my earnings from SIP to pay for my own expenses and necessities like my bus fare. No more shopping I hope.

Exam results are releasing on 16 sept! Why on this day?

♥